Being 20 is Scary...

Now that I'm 20, I have started realizing a lot of things. Here is a list of things that scare me now that I am 20.

• deciding where to move after college and how far away from home
• deciding the specifics of my future career
• deciding how soon I feel like graduating from college whether it be a year and a half, or two.
• deciding how I should prioritize my obligations over my own personal well being
• deciding when is the right time to tell my current employer that I will not be returning after this summer. 
• deciding when I should begin to look for Mr. right. Even if I should look to begin with. 
• deciding what color to dye my hair next.
• deciding when to de-clutter and re-organize my room and what plan of attack to use to start it.
• deciding what to get for my next tattoo and when and where I should get it. 
• deciding if it's worth it to get a car now or to just hold off for another few years for when I move.
• deciding what to do with my money, save it all.
• deciding if I should be selfish and focus on my life or to put my family first even though I want to create a better lifestyle for me. 

I think this pretty much ends my list. But I just needed to get some things off of my chest. Hopefully a new video will be posted on here as well as my youtube channel. Possibly a new one, so I will keep you updated. Still trying to decide what I should do with my youtube channel. Whether to start a new one just for beauty related things or just make a compilation channel of Beauty. Music. and Vlogs. Who knows??