A poem I wrote the other night at 2am

Torn

It sucks

Wanting to be with you

Wanting to be in her shoes

It’s a place

Where there are no windows

Where time stands still

Yet I’m falling

Falling into the abyss

Falling far from any sort of bliss

This place

That has no end

That takes away my friend

She sucks

But I can’t hate her

No matter how hard I’ve tried

Because I want you to be happy

Even though I wish it was with me

Even though I know it will never be

I think of you

All the good that you do

All the moments we’ve had

I treasure you

With every fiber of my being

I long to hold you

My love

Burns deep like a flame

Though I’m scared to say your name

Time flies

The years go by like days

Though my love will never change

Yet I’m fading

Fading from this thought of being torn

Fading from this heart, I still call yours 

College Updates, and Thoughts

Listen, It's been quite some time, and this semester is quickly becoming the most overwhelming semester thus far. Trying to finish college is an intense and stressful process. All I do are projects. Film, and graphic design for advertising are the most time consuming. Also papers and lots of them relating to media and ethical issues. I'll be glad when this is all said and done, where i can just get the adobe suite and final cut and just edit all the things. play on illustrator and just simply CREATE.  That is my life's goal. I just want to create and be a part of the film making process and work with the people. Be the directors assistant and communicate effectively. It's been great so far, the learning aspect of it all. But things aren't as easy and I've had to put forth more time, effort, and dedication than I ever thought I would have in college. I'm a junior. This is my third year and I'm so close to the actual work force I can taste it. Deadlines may be the death of me. But at least I will be able to say that I have accomplished what I want to in life. And that getting a good education had a lot to do with it. That's all I have to say for now.